I got my test back today. My instructor, as always, is totally on the ball.
Coincidentally, I made the same grade on this test as I did on the last one:
Just like last time, I don’t feel so bad. I studied hard and did my best. I have homework and project grades (which I consistently do fairly well on) to help my final grade. If I fail, I fail. I studied hard and have a fair and highly competent instructor. I have no regrets.
And perhaps I am fooling myself, but I still feel like I am making progress and even despite two failing test grades, becoming more competent and more confident. Today in the math lab I did some hard problems mostly by myself. And I didn’t have time to finish two problems on the test, but except for a stupid copying error, I was absolutely doing them correctly (even though I was sure I was wrong).
I can’t say that this is a good semester, or that I am enjoying my studies or much able to look after my own health. And it is quite possible that I will fail this class. But I won’t give up, if only (LOL) beacuse if I withdraw I will have to pay back thousands in financial aid.
I cannot say this is a happy time in my life. But I have not yet surrendered competely to despair (so far my surrender is only partial).
Thank you for all your support and kind wishes. Where there is a high D, there is still hope, however faint or hard to fan into flame.